As I write this, the Catholic Church is coming into the 4 Sunday of Lent. More than 3 weeks has passed since Lent began. To me, I wonder to myself where these 3 weeks or so went. This year, Lent passes me by as if it’s the maglev train in China. What happened to all the days of Lent? Where did it go?
I find myself asking these questions as I go through my everyday living. To be honest, I feel no connection to Lent most of the time and though I carry out my Lenten abstinence, it feels like an empty action, something that needs to be done rather than something that is voluntary.
Even during Mass and my private prayer time, I find myself getting distracted and my mind wanders away. And the worse thing is I do not feel that nagging feeling of guilt. It’s as if I’m just walking along aimlessly and not caring where I go or where I end up.
Although I have gone through many desert experience, I feel that this is one of the heaviest journey by far. That is perhaps why when a friend of mine sent me a song, the song touched me so that I listened to it over and over again. The melody and lyrics really spoke to my heart. (compliments to you Mousie, if you’re reading this
The last line of the chorus goes “Reveal yourself to me, I pray” This really struck my heart because I realise that I’m unable to feel God’s presence. I feel so empty. And the song became a prayer of sorts for me. The song title is “Keep Me Close”
I guess this is my prayer to God, to keep me close to Him. To help me not to lose sight of Him and to always trust Him and seek Him in all that I do. And above all, to really make the remaining days of Lent an opportunity to discover God’s love more and more.
